Being The Creator

I had a deep realization in the last few weeks, something that bubbled up to the surface making waves as it neared the top of my mind. I was not the creator of my reality.

With all that I have learned and experienced over the 10 years I have been intentionally on my spiritual path(intentionally because we are always on our path just don’t always know it) and unfolding my gift of spiritual communication, a deep part of me was still saying “can I really manifest?”. I felt like it was all too good to be true. I had seen the power of my own intention, aligned action and divine surrender many of times. I have more stories stored in the recesses of my mind, than most of the spiritual books I have read, but I couldn’t feel that power and things weren’t unfolding in the ways I had intended.

This deep fear crept up and said “you aren’t the creator”, “you aren’t a manifestor”, and even more quietly whispered in between words was “you are a victim to reality”. I kept shoving it down until at some point I was really heavy feeling and I decided to look at it. Why wasn’t “I” the creator, when I have memories of so clearly knowing I was and seeing things unfold?

And as I sat with it instead of pretending I felt differently than I did, it rose to the surface and popped. I wasn’t the creator because I was letting so much outside information in, it was creating through me. I was so tuned in to the collective stories through media, and social conversations that I was giving more time in my mind and energy to that than my real intentions, so they were painting the portrait of my life.

In technicality, I was still the creator because what was on my mind and in my emotions was creating a certain way of being. But the thoughts were not my desires, they were not of my heart or my joy. They were the societal fears reaching up and grabbing hold of all of us, making us create the very things we fear.

If we give a lot of energy to outside forces and ideas we lose our power to create by our hearts intentions. You will feel like your on someone else’s ride, because you are. But that is not an absolute truth. That is not the end of the story.

You have the power to be do or have anything as the saying goes. If you put your mind and heart to it and your willing to transform in to someone who lives that truth then it is possible in some way or another to create anything (Some transformations are so massive they may seem impossible but there is almost always someone who has done that very thing).

Some would say all thoughts are just random and to let them pass and while your in meditation that can be good but for me I feel certain desires, certain ways of being that appeal to me more than others. I no longer wish to see those as distractions from my spiritual purpose but as directions towards it. Of course some of those things will change as you grow and love yourself past the outside forces of your upbringing but some will remain.

I let go of some of the outside noise, I also became more selective with what I was bringing in and making sure that it matched my desired creations. I have come back to leaving more space in my life. I know these things but it’s easy to not realize how much the outside energy is effecting you. It’s easy to blame the energy or dynamic of the immediate people around you and not really look at the google searches, the netflix binge, the youtube rabbit hole that has you very worried about government conspiracies.

It’s also easy to think something is wrong when in fact your letting your programming from childhood run the show. Unless we are in a constant state of emptiness, we are going to have a program running in our mind. We must choose to pick one that makes our heart lift and our soul ignite.

Be the creator, give your whole heart and courage to creating a life you love. Don’t waste it on incoherent noise. We are magical and powerful beings if we choose to focus and get clear.

Now I feel my own power more fully. My readings and one on ones always reconnected me to this flow but now its taking up even more space in my life. We all lose our footing but what matters is when you come back you are fuller for it. I feel life in a way I dont think I ever have. I sense a magic forming in me unlike any before. That is not only the magic to transform my life in to more and more of my dream life and to keep creating but to do the same for others.

I hope that you all remember this and come back to your power. And if you need help, let me know. I love working with those who are ready to change their life.

In creation,

Avery