A life Made Just For You
Tea cups sit on my antique table cloth as morning light coming through clouds and windows. A few plates scattered and a deep red cast iron tea pot sits with a few drops of herbal tea still left from the night before.
My morning scene, intentionally left out because I thought maybe this beautiful “mess” (usually I don’t leave dishes out at night) will delight me in the morning. I was right. The reminder of a beautiful gathering with lovely people made me smile. The energy of shared presence still lingers like a welcomed ghost.
Last night, a very small sprinkling of friends gathered to come bless my new space. I mean that literally. They came to send loving healing energy in to my new home. We had an unplanned tea party with my grandmothers antique china, a few snacks, lots of laughs and a deep sharing of what we are creating in our lives as well as what we may be seeing in ourselves. We lifted each other up, we reflected and shared where one of us might have a little more light for someone else’s blindsight. After tea we sat down and played a meditation song to help us open and send loving energy to my home. The song titled Conversations With Heaven seems only more appropriate to me now. As deep conversations between friends may also be a divine conversation.
We reflected on how this type of gathering was a manifestation in and of itself. People who want to gather spiritually, to connect and to be truly present and delighted in simple things, was something that once felt far away to many of us. I have always been fortunate on the friend front but even still I feel a sense of awe at how as I change my friendships and way of relating change too.
I share all of this not to say that this particular life is better or this how life should be for anyone but to speak to the magic that awaits us when we open to it. Your unique desires and expression has so many matches for it if you let it in.
When I spent more time in the social media sphere (I really can’t much now as it just doesn’t serve me), I saw so many spiritual people talking about their manifestations. They were often big houses, luxury cars, name brand items etc. I would get this feeling, like what are my big manifestations to show for my spiritual connection. I know, ridiculous in and of itself, but this is what media can do to anyone. I have spent so long connecting with spirit and doing energy/manifestation work and I would think how come I don’t have nearly the level of obvious aligned abundance as this woman with a million followers?
But then this last week and even more last night I remembered on a deeper level, those things aren’t what I deeply want. There is nothing wrong with any of them, I am not here to say that there are better or worse creations in life but that what some souls long for is small, intimate, mystical and magical. I also love the material but my desires in that arena dont burn for the obviously “abundant” but it does yearn for beauty and spaciousness, for presence and tiny interactions of substance. And let me tell you, I have this. I have so much wealth of spirit.
I have been feeling so grateful lately for so many small things. For my landlady who I have conversations with many mornings as she lives next door and with a shared backyard. We discuss our cats and her home renovation projects in the neighborhood. I love seeing her in her unique calling in life.
I feel grateful that on a Tuesday morning I have time to ride my bike to the beautiful spring fed river to jump in and get some sun on my face. I feel grateful for the sweet friend who lives with me and watching their journey unfold in the most magical of ways.
Again I don’t share this for comparison but as a deep reminder, the divine has a life made for your unique expression, for your delight and joy.
I am often working with clients who have achieved a level of obvious success in the material world. This is the success that many people are striving for and often they are satisfied with that but still yearning for something else. They tend to wonder if their career or relationships are wrong, or maybe where the live. The common idea is if they just change that, all will be solved. The yearning will cease. But it usually doesnt. In my deeper mentorships we see what it is we really yearn for and that is to be on a meaningful intimate journey with our souls, and with life around us. Jobs, homes, and relationships will all be a reflection of that journey. Many of those components do end up changing as we know ourselves better. But trying to change from the outside in, doesn’t often yield the fruit we crave.
For whatever reason, no matter how hard my safety mind might try, I can never put the overly material first. I am in no way in any real lack or struggle but big career, home ownership or whatever else one might assume as human goals. My life has always leaned toward the joy of now to the beauty of life in the small gestures of everyday living. But in a way, I am coming to realize how miraculous that is in our world. I no longer resist this part of me but see it as my most beneficial asset and gift to the world. I see it as the things that attracts all abundance.
Because of the way internet and algorithms work we often see mentors and teachers and guides who are living the biggest lives. Their guidance may apply to us but it also may not. We may not even crave that.
In the future, I see a reclaiming of the smaller but equally meaningful life. One that is successful but full and of beauty and light. One that doesnt celebrate only when something reaches a million dollars or followers. One that celebrates time and ease as much as money to live your fullest expression. One that connects as much as it impacts. I see a return to lives with less performance and less shut down and more authentic expression.
I invite you in to this. What are your real dreams, and what really lights you up? What are you holding that you could let go of? Are you living your real story, or one programmed in to you?
And if you need support in this, reach out. I have a message for anyone who is ready to receive it. Just know that this is deep inner transformation cultivated over time. Something that grows and creates life. But every moment in contact with your soul, yields gifts of great joy.
Soulfully,
Avery